Saturday, September 24, 2011

kiss the rain

I've been working on a blog post all day. Then, I heard rain falling outside. What's a girl to do?

I ran outside to play in the rain. So now you're getting this post instead.

This shot reminds me of some of the ones I took while experimenting with manual mode last time except much more organic and 'me'. (Yes, I shot in manual again today. I am proud of me.)

rainy diptych

This was a lucky shot. My glasses were soaked and I couldn't see what my camera settings were so I just took a photo and hoped for the best. I almost never show shots straight out of camera but I just had to when I saw how dreamy this came out.
hazy rainy dream SOOC
I also edited it because editing is fun for me.
hazy rainy dream

rainy rose

To quote Alkaline Trio: "Did I run outside to kiss the rain under electrical skies?" I did. I try to every time it rains because this is what makes me feel alive. I am soaking wet and can't stop smiling. Isn't that how life should always be?
rainy walk me

new eyes [52:38]

I'm still editing photos from Sunday to give you a real post but I wanted to get my project 52 entry up before I missed the deadline. This week's theme is eyes and I just happened to have gotten new computer glasses for work today.
project 52-38-new eyes
I promise I'll give you a real post soon.

Monday, September 12, 2011

60 second self portraits

This "not shooting" and "not editing" thing (okay, *two* things) are driving me crazy. I feel like I'm only loving with half a heart. So... I got home from work today and did something about it. I wore a cute cami (tank top, for those of you who don't get help shopping) with a sweater and had my hair pulled back in a bun. Take down hair, toss sweater over chair, and dance around upstairs. While I was washing my hands, I noticed how cute I looked with my almost-straight hair (from the bun) and decided to take pictures of myself. These were all taken either in the mirror or MySpace-style but the point was to keep shooting, editing and blogging. These are who I am: a crazy girl who dances around the bathroom because she is so happy. And it only took me a minute to capture it.
60 second self portrait
60 second self portrait 2
60 second self portrait 3
60 second self portrait 4

Saturday, September 10, 2011

thirst for knowledge [52:36]

I set a bad precedent by giving myself the 'apology' tag.

I'm most likely going to be posting less frequently again. Hopefully I can get back to a more content-rich posting schedule soon but right now I'm adapting to a new job. That means I really only have time (and daylight) to shoot on the weekends. On the bright side, I'm learning about search engine optimization so I can try out what I learn on the blog.

Speaking of learning, I find it kind of funny that last week's theme for project 52 was thirst for knowledge and I was late getting my entry done because I was reading up for work.
project 52-36-thirst for knowledge
This is my most random bookshelf. It has my reference books, things I read for school, and anything that wouldn't fit on my other shelves. It's also where most of the books I brought to photograph baby Liam came from.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

lazy and crazy [52:35]

This week's theme for project 52 is lazy so I'm using that as an excuse to have put off blogging it. It's not like I had a giant anniversary post to write and a 160 slide digital photo scrapbook to make or anything. (That was sarcasm. There needs to be a special symbol for it.)

If we want to be really technical, this photo doesn't epitomize laziness as much as it demonstrates caution when driving. I had a job interview and wanted to wear shoes that would make a good impression but they're floppy leather and I was afraid they'd hinder my driving. In true Brenda fashion, I wore my sneakers to drive, changed shoes in the parking lot, and then changed back before I drove home.
project 52-35-lazy
I'll stop being lazy now and get work shoes I can drive in (especially since at least one of my coworkers reads this blog).

Friday, September 2, 2011

two years ago today

Last year's anniversary post is going to be a hard act to follow. (I would recommend reading it for the full story of our first year because I'm only going to hit the highlights.)

Two years ago today, Doug and I started dating. That sentence is factual but conveys nothing about what it means to be in love with him. For the past two years, we've chased our crazy dreams together. When things have gotten tough, he's stayed by my side so we could make it through together. Last night, we even had a contest to see who could write the mushiest thing to the other person on Facebook. He gets me in a way that no one else does.

We had been dating for about a month when he started planning to bring me home to his parents. Along the way, he also conspired with my best friend from preschool so that I could see her. We were only dating for three months when we drove up to Ohio to see his family and every day while we were there, he went out to play in the snow with me because I was enthralled by it.

For our six month anniversary, we did a Bioshock-themed photo session.
vacation in Rapture
A few weeks shy of our one year anniversary, we had a photo shoot with Savor Photography. While the shoot was technically a Mother's Day present for my mom, there are a few super cute photos of Doug and I because we cuddled pretty much any chance we got.

Our one year anniversary was so great that we are planning on reprising it tonight. Tijuana Flats, cupcakes, and dancing barefoot in the grass may not be everyone's idea of a romantic evening but to us, it's perfect.

The second year of our relationship has been slightly different. Sometimes I wonder how it is that he can still love me so much after I've dragged him on some of our crazier adventures. We followed in the footsteps of the Barefoot Mailman, which ended with Doug having to ride home on a yellow couch in the back of a minivan.

I surprised him with a photo shoot with David McNeil, who made us out to be rockstars.

We went to Universal Studios, Islands of Adventure, and the Magic Kingdom during the holiday madness so our parents could finally meet. Within half an hour of everyone meeting, we were operating as though we were one big family.

We explored Coral Cove with Seth and Lexa and I finally got to show him what I love so much about Jupiter's beaches.

We even went to Mai-Kai for my father's 50th birthday. (The photo below was taken by my stepmom.)

As you can see, this year's recap is not nearly as eventful as our first year's. For much of this year, I've had medical problems which have made my life more difficult. I actually had a procedure in March to correct an electrical issue with my heart. If the hospital had let him, I honestly think he would have spent the night with me.
soft and sweet
A few weeks later, we went to Epcot. I worried leading up to the trip that I would hold him back and keep him from being able to see everything he wanted to; he responded by christening my wheelchair a "mobile photography unit" and pushing me around the park.

He loves me enough to help me dye my hair, uproot invasive plants, and dance on the roof of parking garages with me.

greenway Caesar's weed
rooftop dancing
At the end of the day, these are the things that let me know that I am with the right person. He just gets me.

He went back to Crestview for the summer to intern at his local library. I didn't get to see him much but we spoke to each other online every single night. When he came down in June, we slept over the Museum of Discovery and Science.
MODS cartoons

The last time I saw him was a month ago. I flew up to the Panhandle to go to my best friend from preschool's wedding and while we were there, we got matching tattoos. I don't know how to put into words what they mean to me, let alone what they mean to him. In the simplest explanation, our ampersands are a sign of our commitment to each other. Doug & I are two halves of a whole.

But it's more than that. They're a visual reminder that every day, even when I don't see him, he loves me and I love him back. It's a source of strength I can draw on when I need an extra boost.

The ampersand also holds an extra meaning for me. There's a line from an Amanda Palmer song that has stuck with me since the day I first heard it: "I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersand." One of the strengths of our relationship is that we both have identities defined by more than just each other. I'm not just Doug's girlfriend; I'm a wonderful person lucky enough to be in love with Doug.

I feel like I've said so much less than in last year's entry, but I've also said so much more. This is what I left on his wall in the early morning hours today and it sums up the way I feel about my life with him in it.
"For the past two years, you've been with me for better and for worse. Through the highs and the lows, you've been by my side with encouragement and kisses. The way you look at me, the way you stand by me, the way you *get* me in a way no one else seems to... I wouldn't trade it for anything and I don't know where I'd be without it. Thank you for being the one who chases my crazy dreams with me and loves me unconditionally. May the years to come be better than the years that have passed and may we weather every storm that comes our way together.
Always, forever, and a moose.